I am not strong enough T___T

after all what you have done to me,

now you are leaving me,

and going far far away for the sake of your future,

even if my heart just wanna cry out loud,

but all i can do is just smile unwillingly.

thinking about you days and nights,

my tears keep falling down,

yeahh i do miss you so much,

seriously.

it is hard to pretend that nothing happened,

and said i'm okay,

while it's really bothering me,

and of course i am not okay with it. 

To put it in simple words,

I CANT ACT LIKE A STRONG GIRL ANYMORE !

i am afraid of what's going to happen next,

there are thousand questions in my head,

questions like

do i still in your heart ?

will you always loving me ?

and i am too tired to figure out the anwers by myself.

it is not that i dont trust you,

it is just because life is unpredictable,

we just able to plan,

the one that determine is Him.

but i will keep praying,

'semoga dialah yang tercipta untukku'

'semoga dialah pemilik tulang rusukku'

'semoga namanya lah yang tertulis di Luh Mahfuz untukku'

aminn :)

entry nih agak jiwang kan ? ade ? 

hehe goodnight peeps ^_^